Well, I am back again....
it's about this very day.....
On the face of it , it seemed to be a very normal November - day except , ofcourse , the harrowing lab performance scheduled for today.....but then,in my heart of hearts, i had an eerie feeling....strange pangs and shivers ran through me.....
There was shock(carried over from the previous evening ), which had to be converted into real anger - in order that I be able to maintain my sanity(no pun intended) -- i was under the presumption,earlier, that i posses it atleast in some fractions......but now i am cock-sure that i am in desperate need for the 'common sense' aspect of sanity (God please! please! grant me some common sense).......
So, shock converting into anger meant that I'll surely do some of the most stupid and weired things on earth today -- and that too for no real reason (that ,ofcourse , i realized much later)...............i feel i've done a crime of the most henious form -- in my rage , i've hurt a dear friend today....and i am ashamed of myself, guilty to the core of my heart...........so just thought of venting it out here...
As if that guilt was'nt enough to make me absolutely hollow from within; when i did ,finally, manage to say " sorry " to the friend ,do u know what the reply was???......the reaction was as if the friend didn't realise it.........but i certainly knew s/he was fully aware of the reason for that sorry........my brazen behavior must have been conspicuous enough........it surely was -- and i knew it certainly was --but here was a person who could manage to be great enough to ignore my fally with amazing magnanimity...............i didn't have any more words.....i wanted to say sth but couldn't.........
....i felt so small at that moment............i realised how my false ego had me believe in my own false feelings of self-worth and greatness......s/he made me realise that it's actions ,not words only actions, that make you what you would be........and forgiveness is the attribute of the great.........those people who are a part of this earth only , and yet distinctly different......
.....i want to express my earnest apology to my friend ,with the promise of trying my best , never to hurt her/him , or anyone , again............i am thankful that God found me befitting enough to have a friend like her/him...........and i am extremely thankful to her/him.......THANK YOU my friend, thank you very much!
