Hiiii Friends!!!!........I am back after a long gap now........so, How have you been all this while...? Hope everyone is good! :)
Prologue : Well, today is 20th August'09 - don't know if it's any big date in history... :P - and my black framed table clock just struck 1:50 AM........nothing great about it....ain't it??........but the most strange and weired thing is that at this unceremonious instant I want to write....and desperately so! I want to pour out everything that's there-burried in my heart, because there is a fear.....I might forget these golden moments...........The college life is getting warmer to it's end............the most beautiful years of life!!.......alas! they'll come to an end, and soon enough...........we keep saying "just one year left"!...........but you know, the bitter fact is - now, not even an year is left.........midsems are around the corner....so nearly half the semester is already over.....
But, quite strangely, all of a sudden what is it that triggered the 'emotional me' in me??......It's a forwarded mail I just read with my friend Sweta.......the loveliest girl I've ever met; and it's not just her lovely, innocent face , it's the real Sweta, her soul that is surely a jewel......and thanks to God for granting me the privilege to be her good friend!
Ya, coming back to the mail.......it talked of every aspect of our college life -- proxies, journal chhapna, submission of xeroxed assignments, fun and frolic before the exams, vivas, crushes and what not!...........Suddenly all the memories of the past 3 yrs here at BIT flashed before me.........and for the first time this realisation dawned on me that -- The past is frozen, unalterable, and this present too will soon become a frozen, unalterable past!
It feels bad..........the college life - nearly 80% of it is over already...........!! And, when I recall my first day at BIT, it seems to have been just yesterday................my heart aches and I want to cry!.............but I really don't know why should I cry?.............Is it the fear that comes from the realisation that I will soon leave this beautiful place............with all the wonderful people I've met here---my friends, classmates, neighbours, and tons of other batchmates!!??!!!
It took me nearly 3 yrs to settle in this place........and now when I'm loving it like anything, it's time to leave!!..........but alas! this is life and separations are simply inevitable......
But there could be other reasons for me feeling thus......and I'm beginning to wonder what?...........Are there some regrets??.....Regrets for not having "lived" my years in the true sense of the term.........well, may be it's there.......infact, it most certainly is there...................but the fact remains -- there is no point harbouring regrets -- and I'll not harbour them 'coz I have never, in the past..so why now?.........
........Although, honestly, the sole consolation here is the fact that nearly the last 1.75 semesters are still left!............and I want to really really LIVE it in the truest sense of the term!!!!..............Do all that I ever wanted to do.....Be a part of all the hungama and the fun and frolic here, shriek, shout and stroll around with friends, make lots of friends........in short LIVE LIFE.........'coz I have realised that these precious days, once they are gone, "no gold can ever buy them back again" !!!
