Just wanted to say Thanks!

Well, I am back again....
it's about this very day.....
On the face of it , it seemed to be a very normal November - day except , ofcourse , the harrowing lab performance scheduled for today.....but then,in my heart of hearts, i had an eerie feeling....strange pangs and shivers ran through me.....


There was shock(carried over from the previous evening ), which had to be converted into real anger - in order that I be able to maintain my sanity(no pun intended) -- i was under the presumption,earlier, that i posses it atleast in some fractions......but now i am cock-sure that i am in desperate need for the 'common sense' aspect of sanity (God please! please! grant me some common sense).......


So, shock converting into anger meant that I'll surely do some of the most stupid and weired things on earth today -- and that too for no real reason (that ,ofcourse , i realized much later)...............i feel i've done a crime of the most henious form -- in my rage , i've hurt a dear friend today....and i am ashamed of myself, guilty to the core of my heart...........so just thought of venting it out here...

As if that guilt was'nt enough to make me absolutely hollow from within; when i did ,finally, manage to say " sorry " to the friend ,do u know what the reply was???......the reaction was as if the friend didn't realise it.........but i certainly knew s/he was fully aware of the reason for that sorry........my brazen behavior must have been conspicuous enough........it surely was -- and i knew it certainly was --but here was a person who could manage to be great enough to ignore my fally with amazing magnanimity...............i didn't have any more words.....i wanted to say sth but couldn't.........

....i felt so small at that moment............i realised how my false ego had me believe in my own false feelings of self-worth and greatness......s/he made me realise that it's actions ,not words only actions, that make you what you would be........and forgiveness is the attribute of the great.........those people who are a part of this earth only , and yet distinctly different......


.....i want to express my earnest apology to my friend ,with the promise of trying my best , never to hurt her/him , or anyone , again............i am thankful that God found me befitting enough to have a friend like her/him...........and i am extremely thankful to her/him.......THANK YOU my friend, thank you very much!

It's a new phase here..........i have learnt a lot from friends and situations around me;they have reinstilled in me my age long belief in optimism and positivity.........well , these are going to be the buzz words for this post;


OPTIMISM --- to what extent can one bank upon this? Many consider optimism as a false armour against the pitfalls that confront us in this beautiful journey called life --- some feel it's merely an object of lexical aesthete not supposed to be applicable in practical situations and there may be a myriad other groups of people with still different views about optimism.........agreed, but there is also a better side to it............it will show itself before you when you earnestly begin believing in the immense power that it posseses ;someone has well said --- "sometimes life's gonna hitch u on your head with a brick, don't loose faith " ---- and believe me ,if you don't lose that small hope,that faith within you, if you can cling on ,facing that adversity with utmost optimism,it is definitely going to make a huge difference............and ............POSITIVITY itself is not much detached from optimism...........they are like the two parallel banks of a river,each is essential for the existance of the other, it's impossible for any one of the two to exist in isolation.

Well , optimism may be the crux of it all, but it is a deep belief in positivity and a positive attitude that paves the way for optimism to even show itself in an individual. and one may want to ask --- how far these acoustically pleasant terms can help us ?............an' some may opine that why in the first place have i chosen to call life as 'beautiful' , because ,perhaps most of us having experienced the unfriendliness and the unpleasantries of our daily chores have , perhaps mistakenly, chanced upon the conclusion of life not being so plain and simple , and hence not in the least beautiful after all..........you may agree with this, or you may not..................and if u don't agree on this view point then my dear friends thank your stars ,and more importantly thank your spirits for being sporting enough,that inspite of its pitfalls you have been able to recognize life and acknowledge it with its celebrations ,for - "life may not be the party we expected ,but while we are here ,we must dance ! " ;because by treating life as a celebration we confirm our respect for and faith in a higher force,a higher power that we address as God, and thus we start believing in goodness.....

And for those of my frtends who DO agree upon the viewpoint (of life giving us a li'l stepmotherly treatment) i have just one thing to say........... " dont lose faith " . i realise that it's a bit difficult task to change your viewpoint, and yes i have no right to do so , but i do have a request for you : you alone can improve your life ; the best part is the POWER lies in our own hands, and we must use that power;and life will certainly change for the good, for one thing is certain -- the life that we have been granted is ours and ought to be lived till its full course; so where's the harm in making it better for ourselves and thus so (i.e good) for people around us as well ?? And if we have finally decided to show up improvements then i suppose that optimism and positivity will certainly come a long way to help us do that ; you bet!!!

..................wish u all health ,happiness and success for life.
Thanks! for your patient reading.